what's your dirty little secret?

i was reading about this project called postsecret and it was fascinating...and  it ending up being so over whelming popular that he published a book or books, rather, a facebook page, a community, he tweets and has some of the secrets were featured in the 'dirty little secrets' video...the site is still viable...i have been reading people's secrets in his book and like this blog for me it was their outlet to say to someone or anyone what they had kept bottled up inside for so long and at least get it out...then i started thinking about my secrets or my fears or what would i send into this guy so that he could be the only other person who knew my anonymous secret and what does he think about all the things that people send him and how does he choose which ones to post or not or which ones are book worthy or not...

this friend and i would correspond through email, which is actually strange because we saw each other everyday and we would talk everyday but we started sending each other "unknowns" that we didn't know about the other person as a way to learn more about each other and talk on the weekends when we weren't around each other so, every sunday night i would get my unknowns[s] and i would answer back or would have already sent mine and get to read new ones that i didn't know...it was interesting to find out something you didn't know about someone but we actually knew each other...i am not sure about finding out things about strangers...the books are super interesting but i am not sure how much sending that post card actually helps...maybe it really does

some unknowns about me...

•  i anticipated every wednesday evening at 9:12 when you would come out those stairs and sit on the back of the truck with me so much so that i had butterflies in my stomach every time i was driving across town just to see you
• and in fact i still get butterflies when i know you will be somewhere i am about to be even after all these years
• i think my best friend settled
• i have given my heart away and don't know that i really want it back
• i would try to think of intelligent questions to start conversations with a really cute professor just as an excuse to spend time staring...i was way too old to be doing this but didn't really care
• i think a man's sheepish grin is one of the most sexy faces anyone can make
• when i am at my mother's house i use her "fancy towel" that is just supposed to be looked at and not used because i can and i know it'll piss her off
• ever since you, i can't stop noticing birds...they are amazing and they are everywhere
• one of my pet peeves is stickers and i have to have them off of whatever object they are on
• i am so anal retentive about toilet paper rolling toward you and not away from you that i will change it around, even at someone else's house

now you know something about me...more to come later

it happened

it has been a minute since my last post...actually it has been a minute since i have done anything normal...i got the job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy to have a teaching gig...wish it was high school but, beggars can't be choosers at this point and i have to believe i am there for a reason.  but, i haven't been able to do anything since i started...i actually spent my labor day in my classroom making lesson plans and trying to keep my head above water as not to drown in the sea of unpreparedness....i just caught up on three weeks of uncrate.com [which is a website i love but, it is blocked at school...which is wise, i guess]...i actually posted one thing on facebook [which i still need to just close down]...and i have cleaned up all the emails sitting in my gmail accounts [is 5 gmail accounts too many?]...i still don't have time to fix my damaged jump drive or do dishes or wash clothes...actually dishes and clothes and cleaning my house were other tasks that invaded my labor day weekend....it seems like those tasks will be relegated to the weekend...as much as i don't want to be poor, i don't know that i really want to work...i mean, i know it is a necessity to pay bills and provide for my wee one but, if i can find a way to set my own hours and enjoy more of my life...what do i really remember about the past three weeks...just that i made sure everything that was due was turned in before it was do...nothing else, did not see friends, spend extra time with the wee one, do any art, ride my bike, go outside....nothing eat, sleep, school and due dates...i have got to get my shit organized....as soon as my finances have bounced back from no j.o.b. this summer...vacation is on....i am going to use every fall break, spring break, long weekend, christmas break, thanksgiving and summer vacation...i mean actually use them and do something so that i won't feel like life is just whizzing by and i haven't had any time to enjoy it or make any memories or do anything...it seems like everything is a blur these days....gotta go for now, promise it won't be so long...gotta schedule in my life somewhere... ;)