open letter

good evening,

i thought i would write you because if you write it down, especially on the internet, it never goes away and i can re-read this when ever i decide to consider letting you back into my life and hope that i will make the right choice...we have had such good times and that is probably the hardest reason for me to walk away...you have always been there for me to indulge my desires and help me to justify all that i do and all that i choose not to do...you seem to be in my head and understand what i really want, when i want it and that is hard to do...i don't want you any more...not in my head or anywhere...i don't want to be indulged and i can't have everything when i want it and some of the things i choose to do and justify are not what i really need or should even be doing...you are bringing me down and i have to break-up with you and you have to leave...now is my time for action, now is my time for change...i have put off so many things until tomorrow because of you and i just won't do it any more...i mean it...i am officially putting my foot down and will be making a conscience, consorted effort from this moment forth in my life to not listen to you anymore my old friend.  so, as i close this letter i know that you will try to come by again and i will be bringing my "a" game and you will not be included so, go and find someone else to seduce and entice and indulge because your charm no longer works for me.  i know there will be a small twinge of longing but i must not fan the flame so, i will say my good-byes.


goodbye procrastination...be gone forever,

me