but, if you are reading....

...then let me know if you want an opinion on something or if you want to anonymously get something off your chest or you want to say something to someone who will listen and may even comment back...then, shoot me an email...i will never publish your name or your email address...i will never reveal you as a source...i may comment about it on my blog but, then again, i may not...email me at anonymouslypowerful@gmail.com

20 July 2010

new hair color


i have a friend who i babysat for this past weekend so she could go get her hair colored...she went red and is not sure she likes it...but, she told me every time she does anything to her hair it's like an aphrodisiac to her husband and he's super interested all over again...i am pretty sure it's like he's getting to sleep with a new woman while not actually having to cheat on his vows...actually i think it's kinda sweet and kinky all at the same time [note to self:  changing your hair every six months or so in your next relationship might have positive effects]...i have another friend who said he used to change his facial hair...beard, goatee, pork chops, and a handlebar mustache once...his wife told him to grow the beard back because that what she married...not the porn mustache man...i think i would tend to lean more toward "the husband's renewed libido" camp then "the wife's i want the original" back...i think mixing it up would keep it fresh....plus if you are really into someone, it really doesn't matter what they do to their hair on they head or their face they are still hot in their own way.

no, it was not a test

i can't believe you actually asked me if "it was a test"...wow, a test of what...to see how i rank up there on your list of friends?  to see if i still matter to you?  to see if the rules don't apply to me?  [we both know most rules don't apply to me] but, i wouldn't put you in a position to have to challenge the rules you put in place...i am not one of those people who just use you for your stuff and leave when your all used up...or am i?  i think we both know the answer to that...giving you a test now is like kissing someone after you fucked them...i really thought we were past the test phase in our friendship.

19 July 2010

did you know????

this is hilarious... i found an old pamphlet that was made up for teachers, parents, doctors and guidance councilors talking about the dangers of sniffing glue that came out in the 1960's it is entitled "sniff...sniff....sniff...your way to ruin!  a brief factual study about glue sniffing" by fred w dies

"doctors report glue sniffers are risking death or serious damage to heart, lungs, brain and other vital body organs in exchange for a few minutes escape into an unreal and often nightmarish world!"

"a regular glue sniffer gets 'the shakes and shivers' when he discontinues use....a novice gains a 'full-blown jag' from one tube of glue, whereas, the veteran user may require five or more tubes to produce a similar effect."

"glue sniffing is capable of producing within the individual ecstatic states beyond all reason and self-control, and wild hallucinations without reference to reality.  along with hashish, marijuana, mescaline, peyote, lsd and other psychedelics, glue sniffing is assigned to the class of drugs known as hallucinogens."
lastly,
"i have been informed that several episodes of homosexual relations have occurred between adults and children under the influence of glue.  some of these sexual perverts are encouraging the children to sniff glue with the intentions of having homosexual relations."

scare tactics are no new thing for government agencies [which put this out]...i don't want to sniff five bottles of glue and see a nightmarish world while being molested by a homosexual so, i promise i won't sniff glue mom...okay i am being harsh but, this is a load of bohemian bat shit

new pet peeve

a huge pet peeve of mine is someone making me feel stupid or insulting my intelligence and this can happen in an instant and without trying to hard....see, i only have to feel like you are challenging my brain and it's on...for instance if i have checked something and rechecked then you go behind me and recheck, yet again...it is on like donkey kong...i know it sounds stupid but, i am intelligent and i know it....okay, that sounded super conceited but, i am pretty conceited or convinced, rather when it comes my brains...now, i don't claim to know everything, although if you ask my father i claimed that many times when i was seventeen but, with age comes the knowledge that there are so many things you can never or will never know or have the time to learn or even really care about knowing...so, i don't know everything and concede that to others...i have a friend to knows engineering, another who knows tons of trivial facts and all about birds, and yet another that knows about everything about jewelery...so i don't claim super genius power...only normal genius power...this being said today...i was insulted by an automated service...and a new pet peeve was born

see...yes, i checked your website and no, it cannot help me and will never be able to help me with this issue that i am calling about today

and yes, i am sure that it is faster than waiting in que, yet again, for another agent that is incompetent but, again the website cannot help me and thank you for telling me how many people are in front of me in que and exactly how many minutes it will take to be served by a human

and yes i know you have an "faq" section on your website and online help with chat but, no i have tried it before and calling in is the only way to remedy this problem

and if i have to say i want an "agent" one more time i think i am going to throw my cell out the window...[oh, wait then i would be in que with sprint trying to get a new phone and that would just cost me $50 bucks]...okay...am trying to calm down before i take these mechanical insults out on the customer service agent that will eventually be answering this phone....i hate automated systems

it's like a person who can't stand the silence and has to fill it with meaningless bullshit that you didn't really want to know or even care about but, they are so uncomfortable without noise they have to keep talking constantly and mindlessly...i wonder if they are the kind of people to lend their voices to be used in the automated systems...that would be a perfectly annoying job for them to have...as annoying in person as they are over the phone....maybe that job would make you happy if you were sadistic enough to know just how insulting you were being to people...but, most of those kind of people don't think they are annoying

to grad school or not??

i have not been able to find a job all summer and public school here is about to start back august 3rd....so, what to do??? i guess i need to get a job anywhere that will hire me and then what....do i keep searching for a teaching job in the area?  do i keep searching for teaching jobs out of the area?  do i keep substitute teaching while looking for a job in or out of the area?  do i save money so i can move?  and if i move...why and where?  do i pursue grad school?  i have narrowed my list to seven grad schools but am i too old to think about grad school?  plus every grad school is far away...so back to saving money to move?  can i really afford grad school?  how hard is grad school with a middle schooler?  and let's say i get my master's...after that what am i going to do? am i going to be right back here wondering what to do? or not having a job?
...being a grown up sucks sometimes...

13 July 2010

scissor sisters


the scissor sisters just released a new album entitled "night work"...the cover is a photograph by the late, great robert mappelethorpe which in itself should elude to the more hardcore edge the group is trying to bring to this album, the lyrics and their music...i have purchased and listened to this album [and i am going to give a shameless plug to the emusic service which i subscribe to and use and think is absolutely wonderful...you should give it a try they have so much music and the prices are way reasonable] any way, i enjoyed the album...granted i was born and grew up in the 70's and went to middle and high school in the 80's so disco and electronic dance music are things i enjoy listening to and i am not offended by sexual innuendo and in fact i am pretty much a bit of a perv...plus in my clubbing days i frequented all the good gay bars as they had the best music, drugs and women...so if you want some edgier lyrics and something to dance to go get it...or if your not sure...give it a listen but i guarantee it will make you wanna dance.

12 July 2010

milwaukee art museum

i had the pleasure of going through the milwaukee art museum all alone on my vacation...it was peaceful and beautiful and serene and i got to go at my own pace and incidentally i ended up going through the exhibits backwards...i saw a donald judd and a robert smithson and went crazy and proceeded to be mesmerized by the contemporary sculpture and finally ended up back around in the greek, roman and egyptian art sections at the end...usually you are taught art history in a forward progression and you try to see the way different movements influenced or reacted to each other...this way was interesting to see contemporary first and so on...and a big bonus was that this museum lets you take pictures of their permanent collections as long as you don't use your flash...i took 350 pictures there alone....heaven, i was in art/photographers lovers heaven....plus they have great artists and works that i haven't seen before...oh, you spend your whole life studying these pieces but, to see them in the flesh...i just love travelling.

decluttering

something has been going on in the ole brain or heart...i am just feeling different and i can't exactly put my finger on it...maybe it has something to do with turning 39 in a few weeks or because i now have my maiden name back or because my ex husband got married this week or because my friends have bailed and i don't really have many left or because i have 2 degrees and i can't find a teaching gig and maybe i should try grad school...but, i feel like i am on the verge of a transformation of sorts and decided to clean out the email inboxes today as step one...i have four different email accounts and i just love my gmail because you can have so much space and you can keep email after email but, do i really need emails from 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, or even 2009...no, no i don't...okay well a few of them that are sentimentally important or that have passwords or important info...but, i don't know that i want to relive the past through my emails and remind myself of all the shitty, one-sided friends i have had and how many daily horoscopes do i really need...i think i unsuscribed from atleast 20 bullshit emails...my biggest account went from using 15% down to using 5% and i could probably throw out a bunch more but not tuday...decluttering my cyber life feels good and i want it to spread to decluttering every aspect of my life...quality over quantitiy...i need to learn to be happy with what i do have and quit mourning what i have lost...quit living in the past and start living in the present/future...here's to change

10 July 2010

gastric bypass

my dad asked me how much i thought it would cost to have gastric bypass surgery and had i ever thought about having the surgery...i can't say that it hasn't crossed my mind but, then there are so many things to contemplate...i have a friend who swears by it and she has lost the weight of an entire other person she was carrying around and kept if off for the past bunch of  years...here are the problems i see with the whole thing
  1. i don't think that there is enough research to see the long term effects of this procedure
  2. i don't want a bunch of flappy skin that is just hanging around because of the speed of the weight loss vs. the amount of exercise done
  3. i feel like it's a cop-out
  4. if i only ate 4 bites of food three times a day i would be skinny too
  5. how do you get enough nutrients in your body?
  6. what if i can't eat my favorite foods later?
  7. i like meat and most people can't eat meat after the surgery...i would miss a good steak
does all that sound like me trying to talk myself out of a good idea?  i just don't know what to think about this...sure i would like to have a better looking body and more energy...i really like the rest of myself just fine and i don't know if this is just the right way to do this...except i am not getting any younger...i just don't know...anybody got some insight they would like to share???

09 July 2010

RSA Animate - The Secret Powers of Time


i know this is all over the net and youtube but, wow i have watched it at least six or seven times so far and i take something new away each time and then if you read some of the comments left on youtube the generation being created is just fucked....they don't have a chance in the world i was brought up in and the world i work in...this is one of those brillant and scary things that you should think about...more to follow

08 July 2010

the amish on vacation

okay, i know everyone is the same and people are just people and we should not single out a group because that just leads to a slippery slope of bigotry and ignorance but....i just didn't think about the amish, as a people, going on vacation...okay, that may sound stupid but, they were all lined up at this farm i went to for a tour and maybe it was an educational, fact-finding mission to find out more about different types of farming but, it wasn't something i expected to see that day


f.y.i. ...
about the amish from the website:  http://www.religioustolerance.org/amish.htm

The Amish movement was founded in Europe by Jacob Amman (~1644 to ~1720 CE), from whom their name is derived. In many ways, it started as a reform group within the Mennonite movement -- an attempt to restore some of the early practices of the Mennonites.

The beliefs and practices of the Amish were based on the writings of the founder of the Mennonite faith, Menno Simons (1496-1561), and on the 1632 Mennonite Dordrecht Confession of Faith. The Amish who split from Mennonites generally lived in Switzerland and in the southern Rhine river region. During the late 17th century, they separated because of what they perceived as a lack of discipline among the Mennonites.

Some Amish migrated to the United States, starting in the early 18th century. They initially settled in Pennsylvania. Other waves of immigrants became established in New York, Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Missouri Ohio, and other states

The faith group has attempted to preserve the elements of late 17th century European rural culture. They try to avoid many of the features of modern society, by developing practices and behaviors which isolate themselves from American culture.

James Hoorman writes about the current status of the Amish movement: 

"In America, the Amish hold major doctrines in common, but as the years went by, their practices differed. Today, there are a number of different groups of Amish with the majority affiliated with four orders: Swartzengruber, Old Order, Andy Weaver, and New Order Amish. Old Order Amish are the most common. All the groups operate independently from each other with variations in how they practice their religion and religion dictates how they conduct their daily lives. The Swartzengruber Amish are the most conservative followed by the Old Order Amish. The Andy Weaver are more progressive and the New Order Amish are the most progressive."

Membership in the Old Order Amish Mennonite Church and other Amish denominations is not freely available. They may total about 180,000 adults spread across 22 states, including about 45,000 in Ohio and smaller numbers in Illinois, Indiana, Pennsylvania, New York, etc. About 1,500 live in south-western Ontario, in Canada.

Almost all members are born into and raised in the faith. Converts from outside of the Amish communities are rare. Some Amish groups have a very restricted gene pool and are experiencing several inherited disorders.

changing my name...i don't remember it being this hard

so, i have spent the past three days trying to officially change my name back to my maiden name...okay, let me just say, that i do not remember it being so hard to change it to my married name...everyone was so congratulatory and willing to change it with a smile and now i am faxing my divorce decree all over the world and people keep telling me they are sorry...i am so not sorry and i am so glad to have my name back....but, i just didn't realize how many things i was going to have to change...drivers license, social security number, checking account, savings account, internet account, ebay, paypal, electric company, voters' registration card, all my bills that are directly withdrawn and why does everyone want my divorce decree???  i figured a new drivers license and social security card would trump and fix everything else...wrong and then everyone wants to know if i want to change my email address because my email has a derivation of my name in it...hell, i didn't even think about changing that too because that just seems like too much of a hassle...like this whole thing isn't a hassle...i wish i had never changed my name in the first place

Jason Derulo - Ridin' Solo (Official Video in HD)


i love this song...see i fluctuate between this feeling and the last post...oh, i wish you could just compartmentalize your heart but, that might not be the best thing in the long run...i am riding solo

wednesday night

i was driving last night at 9:02 and realized that it was wednesday and in 5 min i could be in the parking garage sitting on the bed of the old black truck waiting for you to turn off the elevator and lock the door and it took all my power not to drive over there to see you...wish we were still in eachother's lives because i just miss you

unique america

this is a school with the coolest roof...wish my elementary school had a metal, spiralesque roof back in the day....love old cars and i saw a few good ones on the trip...there are also some neat architecture i drove by and photographed...i like the sixes domes that cover the salt that is put out for the winter...why would you make a clock look like a crystalis? ...check out the top of that building and all the weird additions to the roof over the years and how awesome it all looks smashed together now...wonder what those three domes off in the distance are used for...the one dome that is being repaired makes me think of the duomo in italy that brunelleschi designed so many years ago ...plus who doesn't like a purple cow

barns and bridges across america

i photograph as much of my life and those i touch as i can or am allowed...depending upon who is there and so vacations afford me more opportunities to feed my habit, so to speak...and this vacation was no exception...i ended up taking about 1000 pictures over the 10 day vacation...so here are a few of the barns and bridges i passed or crossed on my 2500 mile trek across america...i love taking pictures of any and everything i see, especially places i have never been before...i love photographing art and architecture, and nature and people and textures and okay, just about everything i guess...hope you enjoy

what not to wear

this guy was at a rest stop...you just can't wear tube socks with sandals and his striped shirt from 1968 clung to all parts that you really didn't want to see...plus the man bag is in the way but, his shorty shorts were a bit scary too...i know i say i am too old to give a damn about what people think but, if i looked in the mirror in this outfit i would think i need to change my socks and lose a few before i wore this shirt again

as far as the bag goes...i saw this other traveler who had an 8 x 10 sized black leather messenger type bag that attached to his belt and hung down on the side of his leg...it was stylish and i know i haven't seen it in the states for sale...if anyone knows who sells a bag like that....let me know

Shared Journey Sandals

i got these great sandals made out of recycled tires from kenya...when you buy them it gives a pair of sandals to a maasi child and the money goes back to the artisans in the namayiana community...they are different and for a shoe lover...a great conversation piece...plus it's green and you are giving back

check out tenthousandvillages.com ... a fair trade company for this and many other great items...i love this store