decluttering

something has been going on in the ole brain or heart...i am just feeling different and i can't exactly put my finger on it...maybe it has something to do with turning 39 in a few weeks or because i now have my maiden name back or because my ex husband got married this week or because my friends have bailed and i don't really have many left or because i have 2 degrees and i can't find a teaching gig and maybe i should try grad school...but, i feel like i am on the verge of a transformation of sorts and decided to clean out the email inboxes today as step one...i have four different email accounts and i just love my gmail because you can have so much space and you can keep email after email but, do i really need emails from 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, or even 2009...no, no i don't...okay well a few of them that are sentimentally important or that have passwords or important info...but, i don't know that i want to relive the past through my emails and remind myself of all the shitty, one-sided friends i have had and how many daily horoscopes do i really need...i think i unsuscribed from atleast 20 bullshit emails...my biggest account went from using 15% down to using 5% and i could probably throw out a bunch more but not tuday...decluttering my cyber life feels good and i want it to spread to decluttering every aspect of my life...quality over quantitiy...i need to learn to be happy with what i do have and quit mourning what i have lost...quit living in the past and start living in the present/future...here's to change