told my daughter that the main reason her dad and i got a divorce was because i hated the thought of her growing up in a household of fighting and yelling...it just didn't seem like the kinda place a kid should be in the middle of [a verbal war zone] because sometimes she would bust out with the mommy and daddy don't fight and she was four and i would feel like shit and i just kept thinking...i just need to graduate so i can get out and i will have a degree and she and i will have the stability of a job...school teacher...everyone needs school teachers...so i tried not to argue around her and to bite my tongue more and be scarce and it worked for the most part and i made it with one semester left until he moved out and on to his next wife...but, it left my sweetie with the feeling that if she just hadn't told us the stop fighting and if she had just sucked it up then we would still be together and it's a third her fault...i tried to shield her from the real reasons we broke up...and she will understand them soon enough i just wish she didn't think it was her fault...
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