so, here's the thing...

i found out the day before school started that an art teacher retired...which left a job vacancy...and i should be stoked and yet, i actually don't want to apply for the job...not because i love being unemployed and poor and not so that i can lounge around in self-pity and hear everyone say they are so sorry and not because i am afraid to teach but, because i have been visualizing my future in boston, at grad school, in the snow, getting my master's with my wee one in middle school and that is the life i want...but, the opportunity was put in front of me so, i did apply for the job but, they gave that job away but, there is a half-position job left...which i would like even better...set schedule, could work on art while i teach half-time and half a pay check is way better than no pay check plus i could still see the grad school, snow and boston on the horizon...so, i now am visualizing that job for the next two school years while i work on art, get my portfolio together and head out grad school in boston...