in a few days i am headed in for surgery...actually on the 31st ... what a way to spend new years eve...i don't think i could have looked into my future and anticipated this day ... i have decided to have gastric sleeve surgery. it wasn't an easy decision ... some times you feel like a failure when it comes to controlling who you are ... i have usually been a person that could put myself in check or at least acknowledge that i am choosing not to put myself in check and reveling in the debauchery and pleasure of the moment ... fighting against a food addiction is a hard and losing battle for me ... i have never wanted to be skinny, just average size and especially healthy ... so, here i am .... in my 40's, gravity not my friend, borderline diabetic, with arthritis, and overweight ... rereading this makes me want to explain that i am not miserable, friendless, and at the end of my rope ... i just want more for myself and i feel like if i don't take this journey now i never will
ten months ago i had my yearly appointment with my endocrinologist ... i have no thyroid ... he asked me if i would be opposed to considering gastric bypass surgery and what were my thoughts on that ... i told him i hadn't really thought about that procedure and wasn't sure what my gut thoughts were about it but, i would do some research and get back to him ... he sent me for labs and we called it a day
i went home not sure .... i have felt in the past that getting bypass surgery is a cop out and that if i was strong enough and determined enough i should be able to exercise and control my eating and i wouldn't need the surgery ... i also felt that rearranging my intestines was not something i was really going to go for ... i got a phone call the next week because all my lab work was bad ... here's my new prescriptions, i was scheduled a follow up visit, a visit to a diabetes specialist and also a visit to bariactric surgeon ... so, i decided that since an appointment was made for me, i would go ahead and see what was this surgery would entail... what could that hurt?
i was unaware of the hoops i was about to be jumping through ... first i needed to come to an informational seminar and then meet with the surgeon, if that was something i really thought i wanted to do after sitting through the seminar ... it was an evening spent talking about 4 different procedures, the differences between them, the benefits of them, and the dangers because of them ... my mind was made up, no gastric bypass because i am not moving my intestines around and the malabsorption of the food was not something i wanted to fight for the rest of my life , no pancreatic switch because i am not that overweight and that seemed way to risky, and no lab band because i didn't want a permanent port in my body that i would have to continually adjust the amount of saline that was controlling the band so, my only option, as far as i was concerned was the gastric sleeve surgery.
i made the appointment.
but, would my insurance cover this?
ten months ago i had my yearly appointment with my endocrinologist ... i have no thyroid ... he asked me if i would be opposed to considering gastric bypass surgery and what were my thoughts on that ... i told him i hadn't really thought about that procedure and wasn't sure what my gut thoughts were about it but, i would do some research and get back to him ... he sent me for labs and we called it a day
i went home not sure .... i have felt in the past that getting bypass surgery is a cop out and that if i was strong enough and determined enough i should be able to exercise and control my eating and i wouldn't need the surgery ... i also felt that rearranging my intestines was not something i was really going to go for ... i got a phone call the next week because all my lab work was bad ... here's my new prescriptions, i was scheduled a follow up visit, a visit to a diabetes specialist and also a visit to bariactric surgeon ... so, i decided that since an appointment was made for me, i would go ahead and see what was this surgery would entail... what could that hurt?
i was unaware of the hoops i was about to be jumping through ... first i needed to come to an informational seminar and then meet with the surgeon, if that was something i really thought i wanted to do after sitting through the seminar ... it was an evening spent talking about 4 different procedures, the differences between them, the benefits of them, and the dangers because of them ... my mind was made up, no gastric bypass because i am not moving my intestines around and the malabsorption of the food was not something i wanted to fight for the rest of my life , no pancreatic switch because i am not that overweight and that seemed way to risky, and no lab band because i didn't want a permanent port in my body that i would have to continually adjust the amount of saline that was controlling the band so, my only option, as far as i was concerned was the gastric sleeve surgery.
i made the appointment.
but, would my insurance cover this?
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