an now we can move forward ...really?

“…and now we can move forward.”  I don’t know how to move forward.  I receive so many double messages from you and don’t know what to do.  I am not a 16 year old with a crush on someone that changes like the wind.  I am a 42 year old who has fallen in love with someone’s soul and that just doesn't leave in a day or two.  You are the kind of person who is looking for the forever and unfortunately I could see myself be perfectly happy with you forever.  You embody the qualities that I desire in someone…kind, witty, charming, intelligent, sexy, passionate, vulnerable and genuine.  We share many of the same interests … travel, music, art, history, adventure, architecture, and knowledge.  You are still living and growing and experiencing life and are not content with the stagnation that many people live in day to day.  I wish I could switch it off but, that is an impossibility.  I have tried to control so many things in my life and it just infuriates me that I cannot control my heart.  So, what do I do now and how do I act when we are together?