the best i never had

i miss you every single day...it has been the hardest thing to get over in my life...i want to talk to you everyday...there are so many things that i think about or see that i want to share with you...there are so many places i go that i take you with me in my heart but would love to have you there in the flesh...late at night there are so many nights when i cannot sleep and i can't get you out of my brain...i hear your voice in my head and wish you were back in my life...i know that being around each other is just too difficult and i know falling in love was a huge complication but, i keep asking myself why did our lives cross paths and why did that connection and spark grow for three years if it was all for naught...worst of all, i know where you are every single day and i want to just go and hang out with you every single day like we used to and i have tried my best not to because i know that is what you want and it makes your life easier...but, what about what i want? and for some reason when it comes to you, it really doesn't matter what i want because honestly your happiness is more important to me but, the last time i saw you...you didn't look happy and maybe that's wishful thinking on my part but, i feel guilty and like i am to blame for your unhappiness and it makes me sad because that was never my intention...you are loved and missed every single day