my jerkface

i saw the love of my life today...it has been the longest that i have stayed away from him since we started hanging out in 2006...almost 3 months...he is looking much better and not so skinny/sickly plus he got a cute hair cut...i sometimes wish that i had never fallen in love with him...that way i wouldn't have to know what i am missing...he can still make me laugh and smile and yes, still knows me better than anyone i have ever met in my entire life...i still miss him every single day...wish he hadn't taken down my art from his office and hope he didn't throw it away...he asked me when i thought my life would finally get on track...wanted to tell him that it would the day we finally got together [but, i was too much of a chicken to say that out loud...couldn't stand the possibility of rejection]