getting started

my mother would always tell me not to write something down because once it's in black and white you just can't take it back so, i should be careful about what i say on paper because everyone could read it...which is ironic because writing me through snail mail is how my mother feels she communicates best...anyway, anonymity empowers you to be able to say what ever you want without fear of a reaction...this power is what propels my blog [i could entertain the thought for just a moment that i am taking to easy way out...by not revealing my identity but, i don't care and that moment has passed]...i want to be brutally honest about anything and everything but some times you either don't want repercussions in your life or at work or you don't really want to hurt some one's feeling...etc... but, i write so many letters that i don't send and think so many things that i don't say...i need to be able to get it out of my head....i am lucky enough to have two people i can be completely 100% uncensored with but, i don't get to talk to these guys on a regular basis...one of them i get to spend a month with every other summer and the other one has pushed me away and tried to disappear from my life...i have come to realize that not having that outlet is making me a bit crazy or at least a bit stressed out so, i decided to start writing...whether on not anyone is actually reading is not really the point is it...